Sorry, Guys

I am going back to my dads later on and my mum needs my laptop for her work so I have to leave it. I come back on Tuesday, but until then I can’t blog! 😦 😦

So I guess it’s bye for now.

But before I do I just want to update you guys on what happened last night… There was a concert thing and it was amazing until there was relationship drama. Fallout Boy looked so upset, maybe more than I’ve ever seen him before because She Devil broke it off with him because of, and I quote, ‘There’s just too much stuff going on at home at the minute. But in the future I would love to date him..’. And I just lost it after going back home that night because she has messed with his head and my best friend one too many times.

So me and her argued on fb and I said I had had enough of her treating him like a pile of crap all the time and messing with his head every time she breaks it off with him.

So now I’m assuming Monday will be horrible,  but if sticking up for what I think is right then I’m willing to risk a friendship. And I know that this sounds horrible.. Sorry.

S0 let me know what you think, any advice would be great or just any positive comments.

Thanks guys. Talk as soon as possible! 🙂

Dreamer Girl xx

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Déjà vu or something new?

So first of all I just wanted to say a huge thank you to the amazing comments and the followers. Even though it isn’t many I just wanted to say thank you for taking the time to actually read what I had to say. And I hope I hear more positive things..

Now to my post..

 

My mum has had a few boyfriends over quite a few years and they seem to always turn out with my mum being upset after they split. But now she’s met someone new and I really hope that it all works out but at the same time I can’t help thinking ‘why put yourself through this again’ or ‘how long will this one last’ because guys always say the same things to get you to fall into their trap. Now, you must be thinking ‘how cynical can you get?’ or something like that but if you knew me, you would know why I say this.

But I do want to meet ‘The Perfect Man’ or ‘Prince Charming’, as you guys know if you have read past blogs, but I can’t help thinking that it will never happen because of what I have experienced through my parents.

So that’s all I have to say for now.. Let me know what you think or if you are going through the same thing or something similar. Or even if you just want to talk. Oh, and check out ‘Stitches’ by Shawn Mendes and ‘Stole The Show’ by Kygo and Parson James.

Dreamer Girl xx

Time For A Change

I think after all these years I think that I should have a change. So yesterday I did.. I dyed my hair black, it was naturally brown – not really dark but not very light. These past few years have been quite tough, and I’m not complaining because I know that millions of people have it a 1000 times worse than me. But a 14yr old girl should not be in a situation like I know that millions of you are or that I am and have been. I know that this blog is anonymous but I’m going to give you the basics.
When I was 6 or 7 my dad and my mum got a divorce and my mum met my step-dad. Then when they got together we all moved. New lives, new friends, new home and a new person in our lives big time. So that was difficult. Then they got married. then they split up. Mum got with another guy, moved into another house, new school, new friends… Then they split up and my mum’s in a bad way. Then because I am living with my step-dad (for legal reasons my biological father doesn’t have parental rights, so when I want and only then can he get in contact with me) we help my mum out. She gets a new house, a few weeks later new boyfriend. Then a couple months later they split up and we’re about up to date now.. And I have a big sister with a different dad, a brother with the same dad and a little sister and her father is my step-dad…
So I think you can see why it’s difficult, not to mention the that my brother doesn’t know that our step-dad isn’t his biological father.

I know what you might be thinking…’That’s just the basics???!!!!’ but some of you might not be, I don’t know..

So I think I needed a bit of a change so I could kind of have a fresh start. And I know that to you guys dying my hair might not have been a very big change, but I think it was just what I needed. I’ll let you know, after all I did only do it yesterday.

If you guys think that this was a bit full on then let me know and suggest ideas of what to post..

Let me see what you guys think in the comments. If you have a complicated family and you want to talk, let me know. I’m here for you just like I know that you are for me. Thanks guys!

Dreamer Girl xx

First Entry,

This is my first web/diary/blog kind of thing. I mean I have kind of written a journal but anyone can read that, I want to be anonymous so I can say what I really need to get out without anyone knowing it’s me.

My username – Dreamer Girl. I chose it because I feel that it suits who I am. So please, no judging. I am doing this to vent and make myself feel better. I didn’t come on here and start this to start a big argument or a debate, I came here to be me. So, please, let me.

So here goes my first post…

New Year, New Start?

Every new year I like to think of it as a new start. But this year has got to be one of the worst ones in life. A friend of mine who I’m going to call Fallout Boy is one of my closest guy friends and I kind of have a crush on him. Ever since I joined the school in February 2012 we have been friends. I met him in my first lesson, Art, and I got put next to him. At first I didn’t really like him but as time passed we grew very close and now we’re like best friends. Then the next year a girl who I’m going to call She Devil joined. At first I didn’t really interact with her, but then Fallout Boy became really close to her and then so did I. She’s rumored to have been a nasty person, but I know from experience never to listen to rumors. So I didn’t. A year passes then I get the news.. Fallout Boy and She Devil are thing..

Then everyone finds out and She Devil breaks it off, leaving Fallout Boy confused. Of course I am secretly quite happy about this, but angry as to why she has done this to him. And then a few weeks pass, they are at it again. She calls it off. Few weeks pass, together again. Break up. Now we’re almost up to date. They started at it again about two months ago and just yesterday, she called it off. Now by now you can imagine that it’s getting quite old. And obviously as time passes me and Fallout Boy have grown apart slightly. Now, I have kind of gotten closer to She Devil because of him but I don’t really like her. She has now come to me complaining that things don’t feel right in the relationship and something isn’t right. Then she gets me and a friend to call it off with him, but by then the whole school knows…

She’s messing him about and as much as I hate it, I am annoyed at him for not sticking up for himself. He says he loves her – but in my opinion love takes months to build up, but there you go – but relationships aren’t a game. And whats more, love isn’t there to play with peoples emotions. He is putting up with her and can’t see what she’s doing to him.

So now I’m not really talking to them both.

So does New Year really mean a New Start?? Because quite frankly, I don’t see a light at the end of the tunnel.

Let me know what you think and if you have experienced something similar to this then let me see in the comments.

Dreamer Girl xx